Harry Potter - Through the Pensieve

Best Video Ever.

Quote of the Day

I don't need a metal to tell me that I am a good guy, as long as that little kid still likes me I know that I am a good guy.
~Wreck-it-Ralph

Harry Potter Tribute

The best ten years of my life. Wouldn't trade a moment of it for anything in the world.

New Music

So in the past couple of weeks I have discovered two new bands that I am in love with.
The first one is Delta Rae. They have a unique sound and choice in music styles. They have a lot of range in the songs that they produce. Here is my personal favorite "Bottom of the River"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6FtsWX0dTg&feature=branded
These guys come in concert On February 2nd 2013. I am supper stoked to go .

The other band is Walk The Moon. Also a really good one.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDVW81bXo0s

Uncertainty

How can we ever be certain of anything. When everything around us always seems to change. What seems like something solid, something we can count on can change just like the seasons of the year. One moment of our lives it is here the next gone put of our lives forever. Then there are the things that seem like they change and leave our lives then make an unwelcome appearance when it is convenient for them. Change is a good thing but can turn bad in an instant. The ever constant flux of the world is what leads people to be uncertain of what to come. It can be so overwhelming that they begin to be uncertain in their own selves. Never knowing what is truly Their own wants, desires, or feelings. They become so flustered in the ever changing cycle of life that they themselves can not discern what is a certain concrete thing and what might just be a fleeting moment in their lives. Thus throwing themselves onto even more turmoil then they might already be in. All moments in life are fleeting. But those concrete things we count on in life are solid, they are the rocks that we can count on to keep a strong foundation. When one of them becomes uncertain and susceptible to change then all facets of life can be altered drastically. Uncertainty sets in and we question ourselves. Change is one of the contributing factors to uncertainty, it is something necessary to our lives but can turn a while life upside down on an instant if in the wrong direction.

Moment of angst

Why when everything seems to be going great does something always have to come and mess it up. Things go great then an uproar is seen on the horizon and all heck breaks loose. One moment or something not expected comes and throws the entire balance of your life out of whack. It makes all things seem to good to be true, when the tiniest bit of what your life used to be comes along. This thing comes and takes away those things you hold closest to your heart. The things you care mist about in the world. It leaves you with a big empty pit in our heart. A pit filled with bitter despair that you can't fill no matter what you try. So you go back to something that you think might fill it but doesn't and only makes you fill worse. That is when you know that you are truly out of balance with the world around you. You fill like you are on a different plane then the rest of the world around you.

Lies Marina and The Diamonds

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOXZ33ioH4w&feature=related


I love this song it has such a powerful message and can speak to anyone no matter what they are going through.  I have to give props to Ryan Ditty for introducing me to this band, because they are the best thing ever.

Saying found on my Grandmas fridge

Good friends are like the stars. You don't always see them, but you always know they're there.

My Motto

I heard this quote on the VH1 top 20 video countdown, and it had kind of became my motto just because it explains me very well. The quote came from an interview in which Kimbra was asked why she spends so much time in her apartment alone. To this she responded with this most amazing quote.

" Loneliness breaths incredible creativity."

~~ Kimbra

Emma Stone

So this is the acceptance speech that Emma Stone gave when she was accepting the MTV Trailblazer award. While I was watching it I was truly inspired by what she said. Especially the highlighted part of it. It is exactly what every person needs to hear when they are doubting themselves and who they are. I love it and her.


“So, I looked up the actual definition of trailblazer, and it means someone who blazes a trail to be followed by others. And that’s an honor to hear you’re being associated with a concept like that". 

“But the only thing I can hope that an award inspires is originality,” Stone added, “because the trailblazers I’ve looked up to and been inspired by are people like Gilda Radner and Bill Murray and John Candy and Charlie Chaplin and the Beatles and J.D. Salinger. Lorne Michaels, who reminds me the importance of comedy, and Cameron Crowe, whose work consistently reminds me of why I want to be an actor.” 

“Those people are my creative trailblazers, but I’m not following any of their paths, and what’s incredible about them is they help make me want to be more myself because they’re all originals,” she said. “And I hope that you’ll find your trailblazers. And, trust me, I do not need to be one of them. I probably shouldn’t be one of them,” she laughed. 

“But that you’ll continue to harness your own originality and what makes you unique 'cause I know that when you’re a teenager — sometimes when you’re an adult — what sets you apart can sometimes feel like a burden and it’s not. And a lot of the time, it’s what makes you great. So I kind of sound like I live in a van down by the river right now". 
“But I am deeply touched and grateful for this,” she said in closing.


~~ Emma Stone. 

Situations

Some people are places onto situations that make life a little more difficult to live day to day. They are told day in and day out that they are not good enough and come to expect that from every one they meet. They can't be blamed for this it is just how they were raised. A victim of this abuse for that is what it is then begins to think due to power of suggestion that something is wrong with them. That they aren't good enough to amount to anything in this world. That us when they are thrown into a depression like unto no other depression. They begin to doubt every fiber of their being and in the pits of their mind, truly believe that they are nothing and can't do anything right. They feel broken and just want to get out. They will try anything just as an attempt to try and prove their worthiness. To prove that they aren't completely broken inside.

Comforting Places

There are many places in which we feel secure and at ease. They come in many forms and present themselves at different times in our lives. When those places become threatened we are like a mamma near protecting her cubs. We will do anything to keep those things we care about safe. Those places where we feel secure and at ease can also just be moments with the right people. There are times however where we become to comfortable and things slip out that never should have been put put into the open. These random and accidental occurrences then tarnish the comfortability of those places and situations or moments.

Little talks. Of monsters and men

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,
it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.
It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head
that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.
Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,
I watched you disappear.
All that's left is a ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Hey!
Don't listen to a word I say
Hey!
The screams all sound the same.
Hey!

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)



I love this song so much. It is just amazing. It days exactly what I want to say and more only better then o ever could.

First Day Of Summer

Well today was one of the better first days of summer that I have had in the past couple of years. I spent the first couple hours of the wee morning watching Nadia G's Bitchin Kitchen. Then slept in and felt stupendous. Then sent my little brothers off to school and sat and did nothing for a few hours. After that we went to hang out with my aunt and cousins for the afternoon. It was hilarious. We went to Allred park and ate a Wendy's picnic, then played on the playground for a little while. When the kids were ready to leave they all hoped into the car except for the five year old. All of the adults and me waited to see how long till they cam out demanding us to take them somewhere to get wet. Then the five year old then came up to us and asked, "Why are you guys just sitting here? We are going to another park."  When we didn't get up he then said, "Fine the kids are leaving, I know how to drive!" Well after that we then proceeded to Wines Park where an epic water battle ensued. You can't say you have seen true entertainment till you see a bunch of  kids with water needles chasing each other  around with the most epic battle faces on the entire time. It was hilarious. Then at the end of the outing  the older kids decided to give rock feet massages to the grown ups. It was overall an amazing day

Happiness Part II

Happiness comes in waves. Just like the ocean.There are high tides and low tides. There are also those mystical nights where there is no tide at all. At times there are high concentrations of happiness, which are obvious to see, others there are low concentrations where it is the little, subtle things that are signs of true happiness.  Then there are the days were there is no happiness at all. Like a wild roller coaster taking you on a ride. Some days you are as high as high and others you are beneath the line. The slumps as they are called. You can try all you want but they are inescapable. They will always be there in the end to bring you down. You just have to rise above it and try. But sadly you will fail sometimes, and relish in the depression that comes. But if you listen hard enough and truly seek you will find something to brighten your day. And that makes the pain a little more bearable, the suffering a little less, The burden a little lighter. Then slowly you begin to rise. With the knowledge that you will reach the peak. Slowly though and relish in the joy for every minute it lasts.

Anguish in the Back Seat

Feeling all broken inside. What is wrong ? Just sitting in the backseat, the spare, the extra. A fifth wheel in the car. There but not really. Looked over and passed up for a newer model something thought of as better. Something not really desired to be seen with on a car. A useless doughnut, just there to fill up the empty space. Temporary, there to be replaced. Not good enough to be remembered. Cast aside till it is needed again. Then neglected, and forgotten. It is always there when you need it, but otherwise you forget it.  Just there. That is the true anguish felt by those who are just there to be there. Maybe wanted some of the times, and seen with good intentions, but not good enough. No never good enough to fit seamlessly with everyone else. Just there to make others feel like they are doing the right thing. That is all. Wanted but not, There but not, Alive but not truly, for they are dead inside.

Stars

I saw this today on a grave stone at the Orem cemetery and just really liked it.

"Perhaps they are not stars in the sky but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know that they are happy"

Dhoom Again

This song is from and Indian Film entitled Dhoom 2. The dancing in this clip is so amazing. The female lead is Miss Universe, and the male lead is an Indian superstar with an extra finger.

Conversations

Conversations running through my brain. Loud and proud. Confusing and agitating all at the same time. Some bring peace, others annoy and dredge up emotions and feelings of the past. In my head they take turns never allowed to take outside of my head. In my head the conversations can do anything they want. In the real world however conversations aren't so nice. They are fleeting when they actually happen a few words and pleasantries then there they go. Fleeting in the wind like the songs of the birds. They used to have meaning an depth. Now nothing more then the empty air used to form the words that carry them.They accomplish nothing now, just to fill the empty void where they used to overfill with emotions and provoked thoughts. They will never be what they were if they continue on like this. All they are now is a way to maintain that which is lost, or try to maintain it. Though they know that they never will

History Repeats Itself

History will always repeat itself no matter how hard we try to stop it.
We can change the situation, or the people, or the amount of work you put into stopping it , but it will always repeat.
The seasons change the, the time goes by, but history is in a loop.
Constantly repeating. Day by day, minute by minute, always the same never changing.
There is no way to stop it. It is a force bigger then everything else.
We can try are hardest,but we will never escape the past.
It will always be there in the shadows waiting for its time to surface and repeat again and again,forever never changing.
You see it happen and know that you can never change it and just have to face it and live with it day by day.

Mother's Day

This is a little late but a couple of weeks ago it was mother's day. I would just like to say that I have one of the best mom's in the entire world. She help's me so much to accomplish all that I want to accomplish. She is the one who is always there to talk to and always has a shoulder to cry on. I honestly wouldn't even be half the person I am to day without her. She is nothing but a blessing in my life and I wouldn't trade her for any one. Even though I don't always tell her I hope she knows that I love her and am so grateful towards her for all she has done for me.