Thursday, November 22, 2012

Quote of the Day

I don't need a metal to tell me that I am a good guy, as long as that little kid still likes me I know that I am a good guy.

Harry Potter Tribute

The best ten years of my life. Wouldn't trade a moment of it for anything in the world.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

New Music

So in the past couple of weeks I have discovered two new bands that I am in love with.
The first one is Delta Rae. They have a unique sound and choice in music styles. They have a lot of range in the songs that they produce. Here is my personal favorite "Bottom of the River"
These guys come in concert On February 2nd 2013. I am supper stoked to go .

The other band is Walk The Moon. Also a really good one.

Monday, July 30, 2012


How can we ever be certain of anything. When everything around us always seems to change. What seems like something solid, something we can count on can change just like the seasons of the year. One moment of our lives it is here the next gone put of our lives forever. Then there are the things that seem like they change and leave our lives then make an unwelcome appearance when it is convenient for them. Change is a good thing but can turn bad in an instant. The ever constant flux of the world is what leads people to be uncertain of what to come. It can be so overwhelming that they begin to be uncertain in their own selves. Never knowing what is truly Their own wants, desires, or feelings. They become so flustered in the ever changing cycle of life that they themselves can not discern what is a certain concrete thing and what might just be a fleeting moment in their lives. Thus throwing themselves onto even more turmoil then they might already be in. All moments in life are fleeting. But those concrete things we count on in life are solid, they are the rocks that we can count on to keep a strong foundation. When one of them becomes uncertain and susceptible to change then all facets of life can be altered drastically. Uncertainty sets in and we question ourselves. Change is one of the contributing factors to uncertainty, it is something necessary to our lives but can turn a while life upside down on an instant if in the wrong direction.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Moment of angst

Why when everything seems to be going great does something always have to come and mess it up. Things go great then an uproar is seen on the horizon and all heck breaks loose. One moment or something not expected comes and throws the entire balance of your life out of whack. It makes all things seem to good to be true, when the tiniest bit of what your life used to be comes along. This thing comes and takes away those things you hold closest to your heart. The things you care mist about in the world. It leaves you with a big empty pit in our heart. A pit filled with bitter despair that you can't fill no matter what you try. So you go back to something that you think might fill it but doesn't and only makes you fill worse. That is when you know that you are truly out of balance with the world around you. You fill like you are on a different plane then the rest of the world around you.

Lies Marina and The Diamonds

I love this song it has such a powerful message and can speak to anyone no matter what they are going through.  I have to give props to Ryan Ditty for introducing me to this band, because they are the best thing ever.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Saying found on my Grandmas fridge

Good friends are like the stars. You don't always see them, but you always know they're there.

Sunday, June 10, 2012

My Motto

I heard this quote on the VH1 top 20 video countdown, and it had kind of became my motto just because it explains me very well. The quote came from an interview in which Kimbra was asked why she spends so much time in her apartment alone. To this she responded with this most amazing quote.

" Loneliness breaths incredible creativity."
~~ Kimbra

Emma Stone

So this is the acceptance speech that Emma Stone gave when she was accepting the MTV Trailblazer award. While I was watching it I was truly inspired by what she said. Especially the highlighted part of it. It is exactly what every person needs to hear when they are doubting themselves and who they are. I love it and her.

So, I looked up the actual definition of trailblazer, and it means someone who blazes a trail to be followed by others. And that’s an honor to hear you’re being associated with a concept like that". 

But the only thing I can hope that an award inspires is originality,” Stone added, “because the trailblazers I’ve looked up to and been inspired by are people like Gilda Radner and Bill Murray and John Candy and Charlie Chaplin and the Beatles and J.D. Salinger. Lorne Michaels, who reminds me the importance of comedy, and Cameron Crowe, whose work consistently reminds me of why I want to be an actor.” 

Those people are my creative trailblazers, but I’m not following any of their paths, and what’s incredible about them is they help make me want to be more myself because they’re all originals,” she said. “And I hope that you’ll find your trailblazers. And, trust me, I do not need to be one of them. I probably shouldn’t be one of them,” she laughed. 

But that you’ll continue to harness your own originality and what makes you unique 'cause I know that when you’re a teenager — sometimes when you’re an adult — what sets you apart can sometimes feel like a burden and it’s not. And a lot of the time, it’s what makes you great. So I kind of sound like I live in a van down by the river right now". 
But I am deeply touched and grateful for this,” she said in closing.

~~ Emma Stone. 

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


Some people are places onto situations that make life a little more difficult to live day to day. They are told day in and day out that they are not good enough and come to expect that from every one they meet. They can't be blamed for this it is just how they were raised. A victim of this abuse for that is what it is then begins to think due to power of suggestion that something is wrong with them. That they aren't good enough to amount to anything in this world. That us when they are thrown into a depression like unto no other depression. They begin to doubt every fiber of their being and in the pits of their mind, truly believe that they are nothing and can't do anything right. They feel broken and just want to get out. They will try anything just as an attempt to try and prove their worthiness. To prove that they aren't completely broken inside.

Comforting Places

There are many places in which we feel secure and at ease. They come in many forms and present themselves at different times in our lives. When those places become threatened we are like a mamma near protecting her cubs. We will do anything to keep those things we care about safe. Those places where we feel secure and at ease can also just be moments with the right people. There are times however where we become to comfortable and things slip out that never should have been put put into the open. These random and accidental occurrences then tarnish the comfortability of those places and situations or moments.

Little talks. Of monsters and men

Hey! Hey! Hey!

I don't like walking around this old and empty house.
So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear

The stairs creak as I sleep,
it's keeping me awake
It's the house telling you to close your eyes

Some days I can't even dress myself.
It's killing me to see you this way.

'Cause though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

There's an old voice in my head
that's holding me back
Well tell her that I miss our little talks.

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past
We used to play outside when we were young
and full of life and full of love.

Some days I feel like I'm wrong when I am right.
Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear.

'Cause though the truth may vary
This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

You're gone, gone, gone away,
I watched you disappear.
All that's left is a ghost of you.
Now we're torn, torn, torn apart,
there's nothing we can do,
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon.

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around
I'll see you when I fall asleep.

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Don't listen to a word I say
The screams all sound the same.

Though the truth may vary
this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore (x3)

I love this song so much. It is just amazing. It days exactly what I want to say and more only better then o ever could.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

First Day Of Summer

Well today was one of the better first days of summer that I have had in the past couple of years. I spent the first couple hours of the wee morning watching Nadia G's Bitchin Kitchen. Then slept in and felt stupendous. Then sent my little brothers off to school and sat and did nothing for a few hours. After that we went to hang out with my aunt and cousins for the afternoon. It was hilarious. We went to Allred park and ate a Wendy's picnic, then played on the playground for a little while. When the kids were ready to leave they all hoped into the car except for the five year old. All of the adults and me waited to see how long till they cam out demanding us to take them somewhere to get wet. Then the five year old then came up to us and asked, "Why are you guys just sitting here? We are going to another park."  When we didn't get up he then said, "Fine the kids are leaving, I know how to drive!" Well after that we then proceeded to Wines Park where an epic water battle ensued. You can't say you have seen true entertainment till you see a bunch of  kids with water needles chasing each other  around with the most epic battle faces on the entire time. It was hilarious. Then at the end of the outing  the older kids decided to give rock feet massages to the grown ups. It was overall an amazing day

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Happiness Part II

Happiness comes in waves. Just like the ocean.There are high tides and low tides. There are also those mystical nights where there is no tide at all. At times there are high concentrations of happiness, which are obvious to see, others there are low concentrations where it is the little, subtle things that are signs of true happiness.  Then there are the days were there is no happiness at all. Like a wild roller coaster taking you on a ride. Some days you are as high as high and others you are beneath the line. The slumps as they are called. You can try all you want but they are inescapable. They will always be there in the end to bring you down. You just have to rise above it and try. But sadly you will fail sometimes, and relish in the depression that comes. But if you listen hard enough and truly seek you will find something to brighten your day. And that makes the pain a little more bearable, the suffering a little less, The burden a little lighter. Then slowly you begin to rise. With the knowledge that you will reach the peak. Slowly though and relish in the joy for every minute it lasts.

Anguish in the Back Seat

Feeling all broken inside. What is wrong ? Just sitting in the backseat, the spare, the extra. A fifth wheel in the car. There but not really. Looked over and passed up for a newer model something thought of as better. Something not really desired to be seen with on a car. A useless doughnut, just there to fill up the empty space. Temporary, there to be replaced. Not good enough to be remembered. Cast aside till it is needed again. Then neglected, and forgotten. It is always there when you need it, but otherwise you forget it.  Just there. That is the true anguish felt by those who are just there to be there. Maybe wanted some of the times, and seen with good intentions, but not good enough. No never good enough to fit seamlessly with everyone else. Just there to make others feel like they are doing the right thing. That is all. Wanted but not, There but not, Alive but not truly, for they are dead inside.

Monday, May 28, 2012


I saw this today on a grave stone at the Orem cemetery and just really liked it.

"Perhaps they are not stars in the sky but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know that they are happy"

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Dhoom Again

This song is from and Indian Film entitled Dhoom 2. The dancing in this clip is so amazing. The female lead is Miss Universe, and the male lead is an Indian superstar with an extra finger.


Conversations running through my brain. Loud and proud. Confusing and agitating all at the same time. Some bring peace, others annoy and dredge up emotions and feelings of the past. In my head they take turns never allowed to take outside of my head. In my head the conversations can do anything they want. In the real world however conversations aren't so nice. They are fleeting when they actually happen a few words and pleasantries then there they go. Fleeting in the wind like the songs of the birds. They used to have meaning an depth. Now nothing more then the empty air used to form the words that carry them.They accomplish nothing now, just to fill the empty void where they used to overfill with emotions and provoked thoughts. They will never be what they were if they continue on like this. All they are now is a way to maintain that which is lost, or try to maintain it. Though they know that they never will

History Repeats Itself

History will always repeat itself no matter how hard we try to stop it.
We can change the situation, or the people, or the amount of work you put into stopping it , but it will always repeat.
The seasons change the, the time goes by, but history is in a loop.
Constantly repeating. Day by day, minute by minute, always the same never changing.
There is no way to stop it. It is a force bigger then everything else.
We can try are hardest,but we will never escape the past.
It will always be there in the shadows waiting for its time to surface and repeat again and again,forever never changing.
You see it happen and know that you can never change it and just have to face it and live with it day by day.

Mother's Day

This is a little late but a couple of weeks ago it was mother's day. I would just like to say that I have one of the best mom's in the entire world. She help's me so much to accomplish all that I want to accomplish. She is the one who is always there to talk to and always has a shoulder to cry on. I honestly wouldn't even be half the person I am to day without her. She is nothing but a blessing in my life and I wouldn't trade her for any one. Even though I don't always tell her I hope she knows that I love her and am so grateful towards her for all she has done for me.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

A Sunny Day

The air is perfect with that sharp summer crispness to it. The sun is out, beating down its glorious rays that excite, invite, and warm. There is a slight breeze that cools just enough to make it a comfortable summer day. the birds are out, there are children out playing. It is one of those rare days were it truly feels like paradise. Even the simple act of sitting in the front yard is enjoyable and relaxing. You can taste the paradise, smell the perfection. It is one of those days that you cherish, one where the most meaningful memories tend to take place. Nothing in the world can ruin it. Nor would anyone try to. When these conditions come forth it is as if the universe is at equilibrium, a perfect balance. There is no contention anywhere. You feel completely peaceful. These are the days we crave for at anytime. They make this whole life worth living.  

You and all you do

How did it come to this. What is going on. Nothing like this has ever happened of that I am sure.

Your actions can change my mood and thoughts. You can be the person that brings me to the happiest that I have ever felt, but also you can make me feel the most self-conscious as well. Just by being yourself you can put me on a wild roller-coaster that always ends in an inner battle that I never know the outcome of.You can make me second guess my self, more then I ever have before.

I am intrigued by you and want to know more of your story, but scared to ask for fear of offending you and driving you away. I crave your company, but try to distance myself  because this is a completely new experience that scares me.At times I can read you like an open book, but other times it is like looking at the blackest night. I can tell nothing .  I feel the most comfortable that I have ever felt with another person when I am with you, but I also just can't bring my self to be completely open and comfortable with you.

There is no way to describe what exactly is going on. There are no words that can capture all of the emotions that have run through me since I met you. I am truly a different person because of you. I don't know how to put everything in words. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but it all seems to help no matter what you say or do it is always helping me someway.

Thoughts in my Head

When a thought enters the empty space that is my mind, they start as just a little trickle. Thoughts take the form of water and eventually fill the emptiness with millions of thoughts. Then that thought that started as a trickle still is separate, just trying to hold on, taking all of my focus to keep it that way. Then that trickle reaches the abyss, where all thoughts must go to come to fruition as actions and words. As the thought reaches the edge it goes over, then it hits a ledge and splits into all the different possibilities that could come from that thought. As the one thought keeps coming and splitting into innumerable different little thoughts, it grows into a torrent of emotion and thoughts all connected, growing with the power of the sea of thoughts still on the top of the abyss. the torrent becomes to much for my focus to control. The thought then is set free to go where it wants to. Being a thought it doesn't worry about the situation it has created or the repercussions of all the things that it is flooding my mind with.

This is where the analytic part of my brain comes into play and desperately over analyze's the whole thought in its entirety.     It explores every different possibility presented, and the many things attached with this one thought that sprouted from a trickle. Pretty soon it overcomes all other thought and function and consumes me. Then I lose all aspect of thought, and rational thinking. It confuses me to no end and then, as if someone has pulled out the plug the whole flood and sea of thought is gone. Just like that in one instantaneous moment.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Bright and Shining

There are bright things in this world
They shine with a brilliance that is unparalleled among the stars.
They bring forth hope and love. They come in all shapes,sizes, colors, and forms.

Bright things can be the people whose company we enjoy. Or the activities that bring us joy. Joy is one emotion that can encompass all things bright

Once we have those things that bring the brightness to our lives solidified and can identify their source then comes the shining. When we encounter the bright things in our lives then we truly begin to shine. The shining has to come from within. Although it is caused by those things that bring brightness , the shining moment, that stupendous moment when we finally shine for all we are worth can not be allowed to cone unless we feel it inside of ourselves. If we don't believe that we can do it an are special. All of the brightness that is here to help heal and make this world a better place will have been wasted. We can no longer let the brightness be wasted we must embrace it here and now. Today without hesitation. Without it the world and purslanes will fall into bitter despair, grief, sorrow.

This is our chance to make a change. We can't let it go to waste. Find the bright things. Find the shining from within and embrace the joy and beauty of that moment.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

The circle of things

Many times throughout ones life they replace certain things or people. There are many reasons why a person might replace something, it might be broke and need fixed, it also might be outdated. Those are some of the reasons for someone to replace something. But there are entirely different reasons that come onto a play when a person is replacing another person. Those reasons are dependent on the circumstances that arise that instigate the need for a replacement. Some of the reasons that I have come across are that maybe the person you are replacing just doesn't fit with the group anymore. Another could be that special circumstance and problems arise that are too great an obstacle to overcome. Replacing an actual person is in my eyes more complicated then it seems. There has to be solid circumstance, also you would have to have a suitable replacement that seems better then the original at that time. I think that most times it is done unconsciously by the one who is replacing someone. They more then likely don't even realize that there is a problem that would cause a replacement of another human being. They don't think that anyone is really being replaced.

For those of you who read this post and think that some thing is going just be assured that there is nothing going on. This was written after a study of situations that came about by other people telling and confiding in me the problems they are facing.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Pet Peeves

There are many thighs that irk or annoy people. Those things are known to most people as pet peeves. All people have them and they are something you try to avoid at all costs, right so why do they always seem to be the mist attractive thing to do or person to be aquatinted with. Why do we as a people seem to torture ourselves by surrounding ourselves with things or people that just seem to get under are skin the most. I actually can't speak foe other people like I just did but on a personal level , I really do seem to surround my self with all of my pet peeves. Like hypocritical people, people who are self righteous, people who are so selfish that they can't see anything outside of their own self, another type of person that irks me are people that think the are gods gift to this world. There is one of those in every group, club, affiliation. Why do they have to be like that. Also there are some detonate thongs that irk me and annoy me to no end. One of those things is people taking matters of someone else's life and business into their own hands that is the worst. Along with that there are a great many other things that annoy me to the point that I just want to rip my hairs out one by one.

Saturday, April 14, 2012


Am I going about dealing with struggles all wrong. For a little while now I have just been avoiding all of them. Confronting actual problems, but avoiding people that seem to bring up the problems the most. I really want to come up front with people but they always do something that seems to make me pull back. Why can't I just trust people again. I have avoided people, those people seem actually seem to care but something just pulls me back. should I keep avoiding people or just let things go. The latter one I think is the better option but it is the harder one. I am unhappy avoiding these people but that is what feels or felt necessary.

Thursday, April 12, 2012


Yesterday evening I got back from our school trip to New York city. It was amazing. New York is probably one of the coolest places ever. I had so much fun.Many laughs were shared between friends and chaperons alike. Seeing the shows and all the sights that are offered was amazing. I wouldn't trade that time for anything. Many people started feeling stressed with all the sounds and people every where. I can honestly I didn't get stressed out once. I felt more at home in New York then I do half the time in Lehi. I really feel like that is the way of life I was born to have. Always on the move and fast paced. It was a very eyeopening trip. We really don't realize what we have or what we need to be appreciating till we are put in a place where everything is totally different. It feels like a completely different world over there. There are more people walking down one street then in all of Lehi. It is a massive place. But one where I didn't feel so small. I felt completely comfortable there like that was where I was meant to be. It was one of the first times I felt like I truly belonged somewhere. I now know why schooling on the east coast is so appealing, I hope and dream that I will get in and be able to get there. The whole trip was totally indescribable. I couldn't describe any of it in words  other then amazing. It was one of those trips that you just have to experience for yourselves. The whole trip was a small blip in time that was one of the best things that ever could have happened to me. I really didn't want it to end, but all good things must come to and end. At this time though more then just an amazing trip has come to an end. This trip allowed for many other things to come to their ends. Some bad that I am happy to see go others, that were good in my eyes, and shouldn't have ended, but they did. Those I am truly sorry that they had to go. Well now the only thing to do is to move on and cope with the repercussions and try to mend the things that were broken.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012


I was ready to confide in you the burden I have born. Finally ready to start on my way back. I felt vulnerable and alone. Just wanting to let it go. You had pushed and urged so very hard for me to tell you. Won my trust finally in the end. I had prepared and was ready to tell and let this burden go. Then a cold-hearted rejection and refusal you probably didn't mean to instigate. Now I feel isolated, like it is the only way to live. Just keeping to myself. To live my life the way it used to be. No one knowing my story or the problems I face. The time has past, the opportunity is lost for things to come forth into the light of day and the public eye. mow just feeling neglected and replaced. Like you are just going to throw it back in my face. Now the recesses of my mind are the only sanctuary left for my sanity to thrive. Why do these feelings of longing and resentment arise, they just end up hurting the insides. Now is the time to step back and look at the world through different eyes. The past is the past and it is done. I can't change what happened nor would I want to. It is the time to move on and live life to the fullest.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


Their are a very select few that I fell can make you truly happy. They are always there to lift you up when you feel down. They also can bring you down the most when you see them doing the things that you know they don't want to. Things that make them unhappy. True happiness comes from helping those you love and care about the most become truly happy. When they are happy you are,and it makes you feel all the better about yourself. If the ones that you care about disappoint or betray you thy us win the true pain can set in. That is when you are put into a place that it hurts to be in but you can't escape. Why don't we all just try and make everyone else happy because then we will all be happy. Those who are given the right to make others happy shouldn't abuse that power, we should cherish it and use it to the beat if our abilities. Then can we reach true happiness and get out of the dark place the we seem to always spiral into.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Letter To The One Who Can Know The Truth

There is so much that we have in common that it is scary at times. We are like the same person with slight variations. You are the one I feel that would handle the truth the best. You are the one who is always concerned when I say something that might be leading to something that is hidden. You want to get to know the real me. You want to, because you want to help me. You are the true friend I have been looking for, for so long that it has almost left me hopeless. You ask about things that no one else seems to care about, because you know that is where the root of it all is. I want to tell you everything, but am scared. I am scared because of what you will think. There are things that if I tell you, I feel you will pull a way, and that is something I don't think I could take. I really want to tell you everything, but I don't want lose you as my friend because that would be far worse then letting the battle inside keep going. I am scared of what you will think and that some of the things that come with the truth will ruin a beautiful and most important relationship.At times when I turn down your inquiries with generalized statements, it isn't because I don't trust you or not want to tell you. It is simply because I am scared of losing you in my life, and that makes it seem like a small  sacrifice to keep fighting inside. I really do trust you with my life, and know without a shout of a doubt that I can trust you with the truth, I am simply scared of what the ugliness of the truth will do to our friendship. I can't bring myself to jeopardize something so secure, and probably the best friendship I have ever had for something that I have been dealing with perfectly fine with for years now.

Inner Battle

Why is there always a constant battle going on inside of me. Why does it seem like the bad inside is always trying to get out. He makes me feel like at my very core I am evil. Am I? No, at least I don't think so. The battle always escalating till I can't bear it. Why can't I just come to terms with the bad I have done and let it go. Why does the pressure of the world have to make me feel this way. Make me feel like, if  I let go, I am the disappointment of the world for what I've done. Why did this all have to happen in the first place. Am I cheating myself by keeping it all in? Yes, but I am scared to let it out, scared of what people will think. How come fear always seems to keep its hold on me. Why can't I just let go and get back to the real me. The me I am proud to be. Why won't you let he let me vocalize my cry for help. He suffocates any attempt to change my self for the better. Why is it that the me inside that doesn't want me to succeed always seems to come out on top. For once I just want to let out who I really am, instead of the attempt at the real me that I put on as a mask each day. The other one makes me feel like dirt, and I am sick of it. But the hold is to deep for me to let it all out at once to those who will take it the hardest. I just need to come to terms and end the battle. If not then it is going to destroy me and I will have no hope.

From The Dark Place

Every thing going great like the sun shining bright in the sky. Then suddenly the torrents of darkness and despair come crashing down like those of a great waterfall. They dredge up the pains and fears long put to rest. Always there at the very back of your mind, locked in the most complex safes kept within your mind. You snap and don't know why. You are blindsided with the emotions that they bring. You can't control it and feel helpless.It brings out the worst in you, makes you remember your short comings and makes you feel like dirt. It scares you into utter disarray. You can't think straight and it all gets confusing, like you're seeing the world and situations from a thousand different angles that are all coming from different places in your life.In the overwhelming stupor everything seems to become distant you are there but not. You have no control over what your body is doing. You sit back regretting every action, every thing that happens. You can't see the sense in what everyone else is trying to do to help. It is a scary place to be.Even scarier is that fact that it happens so often that you feel like all you can do to get better is to isolate your self from the world. Then you meet those who seem to break down the walls and help you to see sense, that it all can be dealt with.

Yesterday~ The Jimmy Awards

Yesterday was a very long, eventful, and emotionally draining day. I had the opportunity to go with musical theater, to the Utah High School Musical Theater Awards. We were at USU from about 10-10. Throughout that day many things came to fruition. I had emotional breakdowns for no apparent reason that quite frankly scared me. Also I grew closer to people that I hadn't had the opportunity to get  to know before. I also figured out that I can solve my own problems, but at times the best way to get through something is with the help of a few people just having the gumption to ask what is wrong and when you wont say try to make you feel better no matter what. Also having someone to talk to that you trust, just by them saying that you can tell them anything can help you when you feel your darkest. I have hope for the next few years just because of what transpired yesterday. I am now a true believer that the best medicine for any ailment is laughter and good friends. To anyone that I hurt yesterday by my words or actions, I am so very sorry, I really can
't explain what was happening, but I would like to thank you for sticking by me. I really  don't know what would have happened if you guys wouldn't have been there.

Thursday, March 29, 2012


I have come too the realization that certain people in our lives are placed in our lives to affect all of us for the better.Certain people have the extraordinary ability to make our day better just by showing up. These people also become some of the most important people in out lives. Without them it seems like the world would end at that moment. I am so glad that I have these type of people in my life.

The Essence of Time

What is time? Is it really something so tangible that it can separate people so much, or is it an idea planted in our heads to give us the illusion of difference. What would happen if time became irrelevant; what would change in the world? Would people treat people evenly? Would we all be equals? It makes you think. If time was irrelevant, would so much bad have to happen or would people strive to do so much good. Would fear ever play a role in life decisions, or would fear become a non existent emotion. Time plays a big role in our every day lives. It is given the power to dictate our thoughts, actions, and feelings. If that power was gone the world would be a different place in my eyes.We would be a more relaxed people, more peaceful, never worrying about when things have to happen and just getting them done because we want to. The things that we do would become more motivated. Time is allowed to separate people purely because it gives the illusion of  indifference. If it were gone would we really all be totally different people because of our age, or would we be seen for who we truly are? 

Monday, March 26, 2012

I love the message of this song. It explains so much of my life in a beautiful song. I couldn't put it better myself

Friday, March 23, 2012

Slipping into Lunacy

The voices in my head won't stop blaring like a brilliant, bright firework display
.The pounding is unbearable, the pain to much to handle. 
I get lost in my own head trying to escape. 
Jungles filled with tangled vine of thoughts, trying to get out, being suppressed by a censor, lead to confusion and doubt. 
It started with one thought that multiplied, became tangled in every other thought I have. 
The noise is at decibels I can't even comprehend, so loud. 
Every one wants a say on everything that I do.
 Each distinct voice different, clear, and strong. 
With their own opinions that are to much to handle all being expressed at the same time. 
Why can't they all be quiet?
 I only want one voice in my head. 
It will be mine and mine alone, left to dictate my actions, thoughts, and  words.

~Hunter Oviatt

Thursday, March 22, 2012

The Fears Of A Sophomore

All the good things coming to and end,
Never having to worry about what my life would have been.
Without you in my life this year 
I would really have much to fear.
Now I can take on the world however it may come
As long as I have you to lean back on,
When the worst comes to worst.
So sad, The fear creeps into my soul
The fear that I will be all alone.
Why, oh, why must you all go?
Can't we just stop time,  
So that we don't have to say goodbye so fast,
Don't, please don't leave. 
I fear the person I will become, 
Without you in my life. 
I cant go back,I know I can't, 
But what if the future holds a far worse me then I was.
Help me to not go back to who I was.
 You have all helped to bring out the light,
But now I can faintly see the darkness in my view,
growing slowly by steadily now.

CrAzY DaYz

Well lately my life has been pretty hectic. The end of the term this Friday adds even more unwanted stress. There is just so much to get done to stay caught up, and stay on top of things. Don't you just hate it when teachers tell you three days before the term ends that you have a big assignment due that you don't even know what it is. Why cant we all just calm down.

Also AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! It is the start of fourth term on Monday. This year has gone by so freaking fast. It seems like only yesterday I was starting High School, now I am almost done with my Sophomore year. So many things have happened, so many friends made that I will never forget.

For me the end of the school year is actually extremely sad. All of the most stupendous friends that I have made this year are all seniors and will be leaving me for college and other places. It makes me feel completely lost. I don't think that I will know what to do with myself next year. I just hope that we will be friends after they graduate. They have helped me so much to grow and better myself, I don't like to think about what my life would be like know if I hadn't met these wonderful people.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Saturday Night

This Saturday I got the opportunity to spend part of the night with two of the true friends that I mentioned in the previous post. We had a miraculous conversation that got me thinking about my life. It was a night filled with happiness and self discovery.

The next morning I got up and wrote this, I don't know what to call it. It was inspired by that amazing conversation.

Why don't the things I want ever seem to be in my grasp,
Always just a step ahead moving too fast.
When I finally seem to be getting things right,
They go zoom, out of sight.
Though I have the things that I need;
How come my wants never succeed?
I feel all alone,
Even when everyone is home.
Forgotten to let nature take its course;
Never finding true fulfillment from any source.

~Hunter Oviatt

True Friendship

This week I was given the prompt to write about what it means to be a friend. This got me thinking about my friends very much. I then went on in the essay to  better define varying levels of friendship. The level of friendship that I decided was most important was what I call true friendship. I define this as someone you click with upon first meeting, regardless of any misconceptions you might have about the person. A true friend will always tell you the truth no matter what the truth is. They will always be upfront  with you. They will always be there to give you the best advice in any situation you might find yourself in. They will give their opinion, even when you don't want it, simply because they have your best interest at heart.

As I went over the various friendships that I have  had throughout my life, I realized that I have made more true friendships in my first year of high school then in my whole life. Those friends are the ones that I cherish the most. They inspire me to be the best that I can be. Without those friends I would be completely lost this year. They have made me feel more alive then I have felt in a long time. They have rejuvenated me to a person that I thought was long gone , one that I  thought I would never get to be or see again.

I owe so much to these friends. I would never trade them for anything. They mean the world to me. I love them so much. For those of you who read this you know who you are, and I am so grateful that I got the opportunity to have you guys in my life.

~Hunter Oviatt

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Monday, February 13, 2012

I will live here one day. It is Colletta Di Castelbianco. It is a restored Medieval village in Italy  I am in love with it.
coolest bunk beds 

I want these bunk beds in my house so freakin cool

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Another quote or really a saying that I like is, " Ain't no thing but a chicken wing."  We as a people of the earth need to apply this concept and look at the easy parts of everything and keep working. Every thing isn't the end of the world.
This is a Quote that I got from one of my favorite TV shows " Modern Family". " There are two types of people in this world, the realists and the dreamers, the dreamers need the realists to keep them from flying to close to the sun, just as the realists need the dreamers to get their feet off the ground."  I think that I am  little of both I dream big but still stay a grounded. So my question is What are you a realist or a dreamer.

Saturday, January 14, 2012


Welcome to the wonderful of Hunter Oviatt. This is a blog for  me mostly, just to document things I find. If you do ever read it I hope that it affects you in some way.  In the words of Raven Symone, " If what I am doing doesn't affect someone in a positive way it isn't worth doing." I hope if you come back you enjoy what you find.